8 weeks

I know my posts are less frequent and probably boring lately.  I’m just so tired.  And not much is going on-I’m just trying to stay sane.  For the last couple of weeks I’ve been so preoccupied with not puking, that I didn’t worry too much about the babies.  Now that I’m feeling better (phergan is my new BFF!), I have more energy to worry about them.

We have an ultrasound on Friday to get another peek and see how they are doing-and I’m scared to death.  I could cope if I lost one of the babies-but I have this huge fear that I will go in and history will repeat itself.  The my RE will look at my sadly and say that she can’t find a hearbeat-on either baby.  Logically I tell myself that the odds are in our favor (I’m not really sure if that’s true, but that’s what I’m going with), but it doesn’t take away the fear-the fear that the pain I’ve felt before will resurface.

I’m ready to be excited about these babies, ready to tell people our good news and to start to plan for them.  But, we just aren’t there yet and I have to be patient.  It’s a virtue, right?

My baby at 8 weeks

  • You can’t feel it yet, but she’s moving those arms and legs like crazy!
  • Her fingers and toes are now only slightly webbed, and her tail (yes, she had one) is gone.
  • Fun fact: your baby’s taste buds are now forming.

7 weeks…

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Today I’m seven weeks-Yeah! We have our second ultrasound today-the first ultrasound went great last week-we have TWO nuggets in there! Both with great heartbeats!
I wish I could be more excited, but I am SO SICK. All of my energy is going towards not throwing up. I am miserable. I don’t want to sound unappreciative for the gift that I have growing in my ute, but this sick feeling, that is constant, 24/7 is really hard to deal with. Hopefully I’ll start feeling better sooner rather than later and actually be able to enjoy this!

6 weeks

And still trucking along.  And by trucking, I mean trying really hard not to barf-all of the time.  I know some women have way worse morning (whatever, its all day) sickness than me, but I’m still about to lose my damn mind.  I feel nauseous all day, every day, and I have for the last two weeks.  I can hardly eat-and what I do eat is on the white carby, bland and boring side.  I don’t want to complain, I really don’t (obviously I will get through this and it will be worth it if I actually get to bring a baby home after all of this) but right now it REALLY sucks.  So, I’m going to be a whiner and complain.   Not only am I hormonal, but this nausea is making me extremely irritable.  Fingers crossed that Eric doesn’t decide he can’t take me anymore!  I’m going to ask my RE tomorrow at our appointment about possibly taking something for the nausea.  If I was already 8 or 9 weeks I would try and tough it out-but I don’t know how I’m going to get through the next 6 weeks feeling like this!

In other news-I am 6 weeks!  Here is what’s going on in my ute:

your baby at 6 weeks

  • Obviously, she/he/them is/are growing like crazy!
  • She’s also circulating blood with her increasingly more sophisticated circulatory system.
  • She’s about to get cuter too, since she’s starting to sprout a nose, eyes, ears, chin and cheeks.
  • And she might even be wiggling her (paddle-like) hands and feet.

5 weeks….

Today marks the beginning of the 5th week of my pregnancy.  Yesterday we had a repeat beta, and it rose from 1200 on Saturday to 5700 yesterday.  It more than doubled every 48 hours, so I’m happy with that.  We have our first ultrasound next Friday.  We will finally get to see just how many are in there.  However, its not so cut and dry.  With my history, what we see is not necessarily what will make it in the end-so this is still just a big big waiting game.  But, I am doing my best to take it day by day-because as I know too well, I have no control over what the future will bring, so obessing about it does me no good.

I feel pregnant-all week I’ve been battling nausea-not full blow morning (or all day) sickness, but enough ickyness to make me feel pregnant.

Here is what the nugget/nuggets look like-  As an embryo, your baby still looks more like a tadpole than a human  being; his major organs are developing. Your baby’s kidneys and heart are  growing, and the neural tube, which protects his spinal cord and connects it to  his brain, is closing over. The nugget/s is the size of an appleseed.

Election Day

It’s weird-while I am completely preoccupied with the state of my ute, the rest of country is thinking about the state of the nation.  Sometimes you forget that life around you continues to steam roll forward.

And yes, I did vote today.  The lines weren’t terrible-only about an hour wait.  I feel good that I got out and voted.  No matter what your political affiliation-voting is such a privilege, and one I try not to take for granted.  So if you haven’t-get out and vote y’all!