NT Scan

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Everything went perfectly.  My perinatal doctor said that she is really happy with how things are looking.  It was amazing to see those little guys moving around on the screen.  It still seems like the babies we are seeing are not actually in my belly-but hopefully once I can feel them move I’ll be able to believe they are really there!  I keep meaning to take a picture of the u/s pic I have to put up on here-eventually I’ll remember!

In the meantime-I’m waiting for that magical 2nd tri to start (I’m going to go with the latest possible date and say it begins at 14 weeks), and hopefully when I can start relaxing a “little” and hopefully get rid of this nausea!

your baby at 12 weeks
  • Most of her critical systems are fully formed!
  • She’s about to enter the growth and maturation stage, in which her organs and tissues will grow and develop rapidly.
  • She’s now developing her reflexes — if you poke her body, she’ll likely move.
  • She’s opening and closing her fingers and curling her toes, too.
  • Her brain is developing fast!

11 Weeks

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And the babies are still growing!  We had our first appt last week with perinatal doctor and really liked her.  She took a peek the babies and everything looked good.  We have our NT scan next week!  I know its not actual baby I’m seeing, but the pregnancy bloat is in full force and especially by the end of the day, I have a huge bump!  I “think” the nausea might be subsiding a little bit?  I still feel queasy a good portion of the time, but I feel like maybe its a little milder and a little less often-but maybe I’m just getting used to it!  I’m keeping my fingers crossed that its actually getting better and will be gone in a couple of weeks!

your baby at 11 weeks

  • You can’t see it, but she’s moving fluidly and gracefully in there.
  • Her skin is see-through, but she’s on her way to looking more like a baby.
  • Her fingers and toes aren’t webbed anymore.
  • Tooth buds, hair follicles and nail beds are forming.

10 weeks

8488E00391344D76860824225E471730And I’m hanging in there.  Time is going so SLOWLY though.  I swear I feel like I’ve already been pregnant for 9 months.  But nope, just 10 weeks.  I CAN.NOT.WAIT until I can move into the second tri, hopefully feel better and start to worry a little less.  I absolutely don’t feel like myself right now.  I feel sick, am exhausted, cry about everything and in general am not a pleasant person to be around.  I keep promising my husband it WILL get better.  I don’t want him to think he’s lost his wife!

We have our first appt with a MFM (maternal fetal medicine) doctor on Friday to discuss a multiple gestation pregnancy.  I still haven’t made an appt with an OB, but b/t my RE and MFM I think I’ve covered for now.  My RE still wants to see my next Monday, after my appt with the MFM.  That may be our last appt-I’m not sure.  I think she’s hesitant to release me to an OB given my history and how invested she is in the outcome!  And I’m not complaining.  I love being able to go in for weekly ultrasounds and make sure everything is going ok.  And, if something terrible were to happen, I would rather find out from her, than a stranger.

Last week I ordered an at home doppler to pick up the babies heartbeat’s.  It should arrive today!  I am both super excited and terrified to use it.  Hopefully we will be able to find the heartbeats, and it will help give me some peace on my “bad” days.  I’m telling myself it is still early though-so if we don’t find the heartbeats this week-don’t freak out.  That’s my motto about a lot of things right now!

 

Lets get a little update on the babes:

your baby at 10 weeks
  • Baby has working arm joints, and her cartilage and bones are forming.
  • Her vital organs are fully developed and they’re starting to function.
  • Her fingernails and hair are starting to appear, too.
  • Plus, she’s swallowing and kicking in there. (Can you believe it?!)

 

Officially the most pregnant

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that I’ve ever been!  It feels good to be past my last loss milestone.

Today’s ultrasound, at 9w2d went perfectly.  Both nuggets are still in there, happily growing away.  Both heartbeats are in the high 170’s.  I could even see one of the babies legs moving around.

Its strange though-I still feel totally detached.  Like, the babies on the ultrasound are definitely babies, but I don’t feel like they are mine.  I think it may just be a coping mechanism, a way to protect myself.  Most days I’m ok, and the anxiety is in check. One day this week I had a total meltdown-it wasn’t pretty.  I broke down and rented a fetal doppler to have at home-and hopefully that can help me when I have freak out moments (and won’t further add to my crazy woman tendencies!)  Eric asked if I am just going to walk around with strapped to my stomach!

Hopefully, as time goes on, and I start to show I will feel more confident and start to bond with them.  I hope the next month goes by quickly.  I can’t wait to be out of the first tri, hopefully feel more sure that these are our take home babies, and start getting some relief from my nausea!  I miss wanting food!